Monday, July 1, 2013

"Nice Knees!"

Kind of an odd title I know but one that has been resonating in my head for the better part of a week.  Two Sundays ago at church I was sitting in the back of the primary room while the Stake Primary Presidency was giving sharing time because it was ward conference.  I was conducting that day and was waiting for her to finish so that I could turn the time over to our chorister for singing time.  Our second counselor was sitting just in front and to the right of me and at one point she turned around to tell me something and then proceeded to look down at my knees and said, "Nice Knees" in a sort of teasing tone of voice.  At first I wasn't sure what she was talking about.  But once I realized that she was talking about my knees I immediately became self-conscious covered them with my hands. I chuckled and then mumbled some excuse about how as hard as I try I can't seem to make them look better.  I put lotion on them every day, scrub them, etc. but nothing seems to work.

Exhibit A: My Knees

Now first off you have to know that this person is a dear friend, very kind and is the sweet mother of 4 energetic boys.  There is no malice in what she said, and I knew that, but being a woman I couldn't help but feel a little bit embarrassed.  My first thought was, "Doesn't every mother have knees like mine?".  A quick look around the room confirmed that no, they did not. But I told myself it didn't matter and just brushed it off, or so I thought.  For some reason that comment has stuck with me all week.  After thinking about it for a few days I have finally come to the conclusion that I am supposed to learn something from her comment.   I am incredibly hard on myself, I always have been.  Like many women I compare myself to the "other mothers" out there.  Some are crafty, some are bakers, some are chefs, some are beautifully organized, some are successful business women and mothers, some are leaders, some are patient, some are musical, some are fashion forward, some are lean, mean, exercise machines, some live green, some are quietly strong and influential and some have nice knees.  ;-) Too often in my life I have compared my weaknesses to the strengths of others collectively.  I don't think that there is anything wrong with wanting to develop new talents or strengthen one you already posses.  There is nothing wrong with wanting to be a better mother and work on weaknesses that you have.  And there is nothing wrong with wanting to have nice knees.  But there is something wrong with not accepting and celebrating what you are at this moment.  I think the lesson that I am suppose to learn from this is that when I feel insecure about something I should look for the good inside of that insecurity.  So this week I have thought about my knees and how they got the way that they are and why that's a good thing and not bad.

A Pair of Worn Knees
  • I kneel each morning to pray for strength and guidance and a wife and mother
  • I kneel with my children as we pick out clothes and I get them dressed
  • I kneel as I play games with them, crawl around like a horse and chase them while they giggle.
  • I kneel as I speak to them eye to eye when they need correction and direction in an effort to connect with them and understand what they need.
  • I kneel to give and receive hugs from my children
  • I kneel to pick up toys
  • I kneel to change diapers
  • I kneel as I mop my floor, clean my bathtub and toilet and as I dust my home
  • I kneel next to the crib when my babies can't sleep and pat their backs
  • I kneel next to my toddler's bed when she can't sleep or she doesn't feel well and stroke her hair or pat her back
  • I kneel to say my prayers before bed
  • I drop to my knees sometimes in prayer throughout the day to pray for the strength to go on when I am exhausted, frustrated and unsure of what to do.
  • I kneel at the temple to participate in sacred ordinances 
  • I kneel to ask for forgiveness of my children when I have yelled and lost my temper
  • I kneel to ask for forgiveness from my Heavenly Father
  • I kneel to pray with my family each night
  • I kneel to pray with my husband morning and night
Maybe I don't have to kneel as I do all those things but I do.  My knees serve me as I walk, run, bend, kneel and sit.  I am grateful for all the things that have made my knees look a little rough because I know those things have blessed my life more than I could imagine. I am grateful for the opportunity to reflect on a blessing and learn a lesson from something that could have been seen in a negative light.

Is there something about you that is less than what others would deem as ideal but that has blessed your life in ways that others might not be able to see?  I would love to hear your stories and the things you have learned from your rough spots, scars, bumps and bruises.

2 Share your thoughts:

  1. I really, REALLY needed this blog. All the posts have been very insightful and helpful to me. thank you!

    1. Hi Mandi! That is very sweet of you. I am so grateful that you have found the posts helpful. It's so nice to know that you are not alone and that there are other mothers who go through the same things each day.


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